Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Trunky

     “Last night, I was writing my brother's birthday card and I started crying. I started crying because I thought of home and after mission life and I was like, "This sucks, I'm going to have to leave in 18 months." I decided then that there are two types of trunky-ness.
     One type is where your mind just dreams of home and who are you going to date, what video game you’re going to buy, who you’re going to marry blah blah blah. That is the negative type.
     Then you have the positive type of trunky-ness. It is the kind where you realize where you are and you only have 18 months left and instead of grieving for the time to come quicker you realize that isn't enough time to get everything done. It then becomes the driving force behind you. You want to full fill your purpose more so you do as Nephi and you GO AND DO.” (Email Home-Aug 8) 

     You are deemed to be trunky when you start to let thoughts of tomorrow over ride the now moment. This happened to me when I was working at the Cheese Factory. I was going through the motions. I would get to work, prepare to go on the line, work the line till lunch, I would have lunch, go back to work, then go home. I was always thinking of what I could have been doing or what I would have done. I had little or not excitement for the work. It was until a few weeks back when I was talking about working at the cheese factory did I realize that I was trunky for periods of time while working at the factory. I started to feel bad because I had just wasted a whole summer to not living in the here and now but living in the future.
     I know that I missed out on a lot more than I gained because I was trunky at the cheese factory. It took me a year to realize that I had been living way beyond the mark. I could have learned so much more if I had stopped thinking so much about what I was going to do and how I'm going to have fun later and focus more on what I needed to get done at the moment and have a fun time while doing it. I hope by me sharing this example it will help us take a perspective change and change the driving force from ‘because we have to’ to ‘because we don't want to miss a second!".

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